Let's go!~

1 year and 2 months

2011-09-03T09:17:00.001-07:00

Bi, you da lama tak amek gambar dgn i.. amek pun tak senyum.Patut you yg tanya soalan tuh kat diri you.. yg selalu amek gambar kita kan u.. bukan i.Mmmm.. Betul jugak eh. ok, sekarang jugak kita amek gambar!Heee.. Happy anniversary abangku sayang.. Im so happy with you.

2011-08-13T10:33:00.000-07:00

I love it when we could read each other minds.

I love it when we laughed about the same thing without telling each other what was it initially.

I love it how he acted like me and said the words I would probably do.

I love him, so so so much.

Period.

The other day, I had this stupid dream. I dreamt that my ex get back together with me. And I was suppose to be happy because that was what I ever wanted. But I didn't. Because I don't love him anymore.

When I woke up, I'm glad that it was a dream. And I realized that I had let go of the past and accepting the present. Alhamdulillah.

I'm glad I got over it, after all these years. Grrr.. What a waste of time.

2011-06-15T09:22:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah.. Im happy.

=)

Thank you people for being there in my life.

Thank you my Love, for you have been praising me endlessly. And my love of language is words of affirmation. It feels nice to listen on how you would tell, what a great teacher I am..

Thank you for building the confidence.. Never once, telling me that I could not do it.

I know we are not the perfect ideal couple.. We have flaws and our own ups and downs, mood swings, etc.

Well, love is not sweet all the time.

But I thank Allah and thank you, for making us pull through until now.

Our relationship has matured now.. We both know our strengths and weaknesses. The bickering we had, it didnt take that much long to settle it out.

I hope whatever we have planned, it will go smoothly. Amin.

P/s, I love you. =)

2011-04-18T06:38:00.001-07:00

Pleaseeee tell me I don't look like 25???

Okay fine! Acting cute doesn't help! *SHRUGS* Hehehehe... Kidding.

You know.. I really feel like I am getting old.. Haha. Well of course! For goodness sake, I am going to be mid-twenty this year..

There are things that I am forcing myself to change. I keep telling myself, Rahimah.. You are not young anymore.. You have to be wiser.

It's like turning 25, you have another person inside you that keep reminding you to think twice before doing anything... Hee.. Isn't it weird? ;)

It was one year ago, I was still listening to those hip song. And suddenly I feel out of place listening to my own mp3 now. Funny. Funny. :)

People changed...

Moving on.

2011-04-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

~Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over agaiiiin....~

Razlie surprised me with a watch the other day... I was just so touched that I cried! :') Because it was an extra money he got from his boss and he used it all up just for that... Awwww... Sweet kaan?? Hehehe...

I was speechless... And I realized there are things that I have been taking things for granted. Like how tired he was on his off day but still meeting me, sending me to doctor when I am sick, meet me even though it was raining.. And tried to include me in his life that much... And the list goes on. :)

I love you Bi. This is the sweetest anniversary that I had with you..

I don't want to take someone for granted again... And alhamdulillah, I am glad He makes me realized fast enough not to make the same mistakes again...

Moving on.

2011-03-18T11:14:00.000-07:00

~Regardless of race, language or religion.~

Yah right.

And I still couldn't understand why there are Malays siding him.

When he prefers us Malay to disregard the halal and haram.

When we are accused of not being able to integrate in the community.

Forgive me if I am wrong... But when you are looking for a job, just look at the newspaper..

Ooohhh.. Bilingual. WOW. Erkz.. Mandarin and English..?

So who is unable to integrate in the community now?

Grrrr..... Life is so unfair. Living in Singapore, make it worst.

I hate my country. I am so sick of this busy life, stressing me, the mrt is soo crowded.. With banglas, China people with no sense of courtesy and other foreign workers... Where we work so hard like what just to make the government rich!

This is where I belong? Screw that.

No, I can't move on from this.

2011-03-10T06:11:00.001-08:00

HAPPY MOOD!!!! :)

And I'm not sure why.

It must have been love.

;P

2011-03-09T06:48:00.000-08:00

~Antal hadi antal haq.. Laisal hadi illahu...~

Kadang kala bila kita tidak dapat apa yang kita nak, memang menghampakan...

Tetapi, sesungguhnya... Dia lebih mengetahui. :)

2011-03-07T05:25:00.000-08:00

~Stay the Same..~

When she replied my message on facebook, I felt like over the moon. It feels nice to have someone like you in my life. I miss her so much. We will be meeting again, God knows when. :)

I baked that. It was superb, he loved it. Well, it was instant by the way. Just mixed everything up. Nevertheless, I'm proud of myself! *pats on the back* ;)

Lately, my confidence is not that good. Been having low self-esteem lately. Some days, I just hate to see myself on the mirror. Kept telling myself I look good, though most of the times.. It doesn't works.

HEH. Hence I dedicate this song to myself. Heeeeee....

~I wish I could move on that fast like you...~

2011-03-03T01:11:00.000-08:00

He was working the whole night, tired and went for his driving license. Weather was unkind, it was very hot and I was.. errr.. late for like almost half and hour.

Could see he was frustrated especially with the long hot walk to IMM since there was a construction going on..

I started the conversation and it went on smoothly. He even apologized and told me, kepala dia tengah bengal and he was very tired. On top of that, he teased me saying, "Oh sayang I lambat sebab nak berdandan untuk I eeehhh..??? Thank youu..."

I know this is a small thing.. Or maybe even nothing to some. I guess I felt bad because I was late but he ended up apologizing instead. Well.. I guess in some ways, I'm proud of him. :)

It's going to be 8 months tomorrow. Time flies. Really.

Ya Allah, I hope he is the right guy for me and our love will be eternally. Amin...

On the side note, I miss Fairuz badly. Being pregnant, I think she must have been busy. I'm not sure why but I could not sms her malaysian number. I hope she is alright.

You know... When I saw Kak Seet profile, I wonder whether things are going to be the same again? Can we lepak like we used too.. Can I call her and have a chat..?

I hardly even meet my other friends too. I used to meet them on weekdays quite easily but lately, I've been turned down from them quite a lot of times... I guess each one of us has our own lives to run. :) HEH. Part of growing up, I assume. I miss Kenturdekz. Can't wait for KL!!

Okay now...
BACK TO ASSIGNMENT. DATE DUE IS TOMORROW!!!! FOCUSSS!!!

2011-03-02T06:59:00.000-08:00

I read back my blog.. I said the exact same thing like 2 years ago. Gosh. -_-"

That's kindda lame. Huhu.

And I think I was more pious back then. That side of me that I have been lacking.

I admired myself two years back. Now what has happened to me..?

Lately, I have been thinking of Him more.

That's a good thing, I presume?

On the side note: I need to love myself more in an unselfish way of course. ;)

2011-03-01T05:03:00.001-08:00

I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt again.

ARGH!!

PMS makes me turned into one hell of emotional drama mama!!

Stop thinking too much.

Time check: 10.50pm

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

Thank God I went for a jog... I'm less emotional. Probably PMS. PMS SUCKS! Hehehe..

While jogging, I realized being an adult.. You have to learn how to control your feelings.

I'm not good at hiding my feelings. Rebellious, emotional and sensitive.. I tend to show all these negative behaviours because I think other people have the right to know how I feel.

And my ego demands too much...

I guess, that sounds quite childish huh..?

I'm 25 this year. For goodness sake, grow up Rahimah!

Bluergh..

I'm cooling myself down right down. I'm sweating like err.....

2011-02-26T20:35:00.000-08:00

I didn't expect this at all.

Nevertheless it was a nice surprise.. :)

"I realized that laughter is the best medicine. I mean, it works on relationship as well. I love it when we tease each other.. Both of us kept laughing and laughing and he said I love you at the end of it..."

2011-02-23T04:01:00.001-08:00

What I've learned this year.. Well, it's only February by the way..

Human could be hopeless when you are depending on them. Harsh?

I shall rephrase, Depend on nothing but Allah. Better? Indeed. ;P

And second, You are responsible for your own happiness.

Don't expect someone or even your beloved to cheer you up when you are feeling down. Really! Really! Really...

Been there a lot of times and well.. it ended worst! Hah! Tell me about it..

I guess... Whatever happened.. Really, like anything.. Put your faith in Allah alone.

*smiles*

Psst... Be more understanding ey? I am trying.. And I wish you could see that. Ya Allah, if this what makes me more patience to face the future.. Then please grants me strengths.. Amin.

Still fever. Headache. URGH.

2011-02-19T21:23:00.000-08:00

The other day, I bought someone apple with pepper inside as she requested. Upon giving her that, she said "So little (pepper)? This one you bought for me not for yourself."

I was stunned for awhile. Thank you would be nice for a start and she could at least tell me nicely that it would be better to have more pepper inside.

I thought of replying, "Because I don't want to make you fat as you already am." But I know I'm way better than that. BAAAH! ;p

You see, there are always, always, ALWAYS better ways to convey your message nicely.

Like Raz told me, "Semua orang boleh marah.. Tapi bila kita marah, jangan kita sampai mengatakan kata-kata yang menyakiti hati orang lain." Ironically, that came from him. ;P Heeee!

I'm not saying I'm perfect or what.. But lately, other few things that has been happening, makes me realized.. You never know how people could get offended over a small misunderstanding.. And you may never know how this small issue could lead to bigger one..

It is scary.. Because the words that we used out of anger, we couldn't take it back. It's up to the other party to forget or... to remember. Either ways, it has caused much pain.

That's what I'm telling myself everyday.. To watch my words, especially when I have a baaaad baaad argument with Raz... Seriously women, we are good at putting our feelings across using words. Ba hah!

Okay, back to assignment. :( *sigh* Again, what in the world did I take degree in the first place..????!!!

2011-02-16T04:54:00.000-08:00

Random part 1

Sayang: Biiiii.. I rasa kan, tahun nih I nak bunga rose lah untuk my birthday.

He laughed. And I laughed too.

Bi: Kenapa you ketawa?

Sayang: You ketawa sebab I ketawalah.

Bi: you nak apa kaler? kaler merah ke kuning ke.. pink ke..

Sayang: Mmm.. kaler up to you.. Tak kisah lah berapa banyak. Satu pun boleh. Selalunya I cakap kan, you mcm buat bodoh je. Nih I mintak lah!

Bi: *laughed again* okay, nanti birthday you I bagi you bunga k..

Sayang: Bunga je ke?

Bi: Bunga dan tangkai..

Sayang: Bunga dan tangkai je keee...?

Bi: Bunga, tangkai dan daun!

Sayang: Wow! Bestnya! Bunga, tangkai dan daun I dapat Bi!

*Both of us laughed*

Bi: Tiga tau I bagi!

Sayang: Waaaah! I dapat tiga lah.. You are the best lah Bi!!

Bi: Jangan cakap kuat-kuat. Malu saya.

HMPH! Hehehe...

Random part 2

Sayang: Bi.... Kalau orang tgk cerita cinta kita, mesti dorang amek tissue lap air mata eh..

Bi: Mesti I jadi orang jahat, banyak orang tak suka I..

Sayang: Watak antogonis..

Bi: Mesti orang pun meluat tengok you.

Sayang: EHHHH!!!

Bi: *laughed*

Sayang: Mulut tak berlesen sey bual.. I pegang watak yg mencabar eh!

Kehkehekeeh...

2011-02-09T06:50:00.000-08:00

What was I thinking... Again and again.

I shouldn't have smsed that. I really really really shouldn't have smsed that.

Because that's not what I really feel.

URGH.

2011-02-08T08:46:00.000-08:00

What was I thinking..? He was the best.

But right now, nobody should replace you. :)

These 7 months were filled with ups and downs. Reading back my blog, I realized that you have been there for me through many events.

Again, I don't want to take you for granted.

We really, *phew* really went through a lot of thunder and storms lately. I am so glad we are able to work it out in the end despite those... Urgh.. horrible endless arguments. Hee... :)

Alhamdulillah... It feels nice to know that I'm not the only one praying that our relationship would last long. Amin...

2011-01-22T20:03:00.000-08:00

That's me with my sis and my mom.. :)

That's me with my nieces.. Love them loads! Still cute as ever. ;)

That's their parent.. Awww... Uber-Sweet. ;)

That's me... I look like 25 ey? Haha.. Matured looking with specs.

And that's him..

The guy who bought for me the purse I held on the above picture. Yeaps, this is the man... That I love a lot. :)

Okay, back to assignment!

Psst.. I'm happy. Alhamdulillah...

Oh Fariis told me not to take things too seriously. Mmm.... Probably I should. ;P

2011-01-20T07:08:00.000-08:00

Whiny mode.

Stress level is very high.

Aerghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......................

Dahbes.

2011-01-17T06:10:00.000-08:00

Random thoughts:

When you are down, when they turned their back against you.. You try to find me. And now when the table is turn around, I am like a nobody. But it's okay. I guess I'm used to it. ;)

My eye infection is getting worst. Hee.. And that bad until I need to see an eye specialist. I was somehow touched that Razlie told me, he would take leave so he could accompany me on that day.

You know, those small little things when the person you loves does for you.

And I realized... Having a relationship, being in a relationship and strengthen it is not that easy. Patience... Patience. :) I hope we could make it there. Amin.

My course has been stressing me out. Yes, assignment here and there. *SIGH* Degree... What in the world did I take degree in the first place??!! Too late to regret now. 10 more months to go! Ya Allah, please.. Help me to go through this with ease. Amin.

I have been falling sick lately... Yes, one after another. Fever, piles.. Eye infection... Swollen gum... :( Boohooo....

Well on the other hand, something to cheer me up is that Pai smsed me the other day.. It felt good to have a friend that cares for you. I miss Pai... A LOT. It feels nice to have a friend and you share like your most top secret with her.. It is childish and somehow cute. Ahaha...

I am truly uber-happy for her. ;)

2011-01-07T10:05:00.000-08:00

8-January-2011

Hancur.

Sehancur hancurnya.

2010-12-31T04:38:00.000-08:00

Aku rindu Fairuz. Betul.

Tapi aku tahu dia dah sibuk dengan hidup dia sendiri.

Entah mengapa, aku rasa jauh sekali dengan dia.

2010-12-27T05:34:00.000-08:00

Unexpectedly I came across his old blog.. And out of curiosity, I began to read.. Half way while reading it, I realized..

"Eh, buat apa kau nak teruskan baca lagi? Dah tak gunalah."

Indeed. It is meaningless.

I told myself, I don't ever want to take someone for granted again.

I love you Bi. ;)

2010-12-09T04:00:00.000-08:00

~Ugly Entry~

I don't mean to be evil but it feels sooo damn good to be able to push this auntie's hand that purposely held the pole and stood in such a way that I could not be able to move in.

I even said politely, "Could you please move in a bit?" Which fell into deaf ears.

So you could imagine me being half squashed when the door was closing that my handbag even fell off from my shoulder.

This auntie still has the cheek to push me even after the door was closed. Tired and angry, I pushed her back, harder. She pushed me again and again but my hand was surprisingly strong at that point of time.

I could hear her, "HPMH!" and switched her place. Amazingly, I have more space after that! Can you imagine that..?? Wouldn't it be easier if she would do that on the first place.. Dengki sey.

I wanted to finish it off by giving her a smirk smile but she didn't look at me.

I felt like I won the battle of kiasu-ism. Yes, something that should not be proud of.

But seriously, if you selfishly wouldn't want to move in a bit when there were spaces.. What makes you think I wouldn't push you.. Better still knock your head on the pole so it could knock some sense into you to at least have some considerations!

Hahaha... Yes, the evil side of me feels like laughing out loud.

2010-12-08T08:45:00.000-08:00

"Bi.. I rindu Fairuz.."

"Kalau you rindu dia, you pm lah dia kat facebook. Cakap you rindu dia. Dia sekarang 'kan dah ada family. Ada tanggung jawab dia sebagai isteri.. Nak settle down, kenal family suami dia dan sibuk kerja.. Dia pun mesti ada masalah dia sendiri.."

"I rasa macam lama gitu nak jumpa dia lagi.."

"I rasa dia pun mesti rindukan you jugak.."

Missing her again.

Thank you sayang for consoling me. I am glad that I have you. ;)

2010-12-06T06:03:00.000-08:00

"Bi.. I am stress! I ada banyak benda kena bikin kat kepala otak I.."

Yes, lately I have been saying that a LOT.

English test, PTC, Degree.. Urgh.. And driving license.

And I can't seem to focus or put my mind into it. HAIZ!

Worst still, I have been indulging chocolate.. and more of it!!

Hmmm.... :(

Anyway, I have been missing Fairuz a lot.. My life is less fun without you. And you know what Pai, Razlie has been taking your place ever since you have been gone.. He is like my best friend already...

*sigh* I miss you so much... :'(

2010-11-08T07:27:00.000-08:00

I miss listening to Raihan.

2010-11-07T03:21:00.000-08:00

~Things people do for people they love.~

Starting from Today..

Sunday is my "Belajar Masak" day...

Banyak kali sangat Dia dah sound.

Huhu!!~

"Kalau you bilang I, you masak.. I datang sana I makan k. Datang kerja lambat pun tak apa."

2010-11-05T08:35:00.000-07:00

Made up my mind.

I want this to work... like FOREVER. ;)

Amin...

"I love it when each time we met and he said, cantiknya sayang i.. It makes me feels vulnerable."

2010-11-03T09:00:00.000-07:00

I yearn for my heart to be the same colour as my dress.

Happy 4th Anniversary Bi.. Semoga Allah merahmati hubungan kita. Dan semoga berkekalan hingga ke pintu syurga, semakin hari, semakin sayang dan kekal bahagia.. Amin! ;)

"Nak bina masjid bukan senang.. Kena banyak sabar, persefahaman, jujur dan ikhlas. Nak runtuhkan masjid, senang je. Kena banyak solat..."

2010-11-02T06:50:00.000-07:00

I am 12 months away from getting a Degree!!

It is a big step.

I do want to become a Mosque Principal. And I am not kidding about it.

;)

2010-11-01T07:00:00.001-07:00

Talked to Fariis today.. I regard him like a big brother to me. Told him about the big misunderstanding I had with my boyfie last weekened..

And this is what he told me.. Something I would want to take note, something that I know and I have been forgetting..

- That every word is a Do'a. Whatever I said, be it good or bad it could come true. Always say the good stuffs!~

- If I am angry, I should take my wudu' and when I am angry and I really feel like saying something out.. DON'T. Because it is not what you really wanted to say, that person is not you but Syaitan.

- Don't compare myself and his former girlfriends.. What matters now is that I am his present. Whatever has buried, it will only sink deeper.

- Watch what we say or what we do... Because we couldn't take it back.

- Before one do anything, ask yourself.. Does this bring you closer to Allah.. or not.

"That life is like a Monopoly game. You bought a lot of houses and money but when the game is over, you have to return it back.."

"Don't throw tantrum and be like the baby in a pram, throw the toys on the floor and it is too high for you to pick it up. One day, nobody is going to pick up the toys for u.."

"You always chase something that not in your hand, but when you have it, you will feel nothing. Chase something that you don't get.. chase God."

"Boyfriend, your friends, your family, your colleagues is all a reflection of you. And if you realized that everything is a reflection of God.. You will treat everyone better."

And I thank Allah, for letting me meet nice nice people in my life. Alhamdulillah. ;)

~I love HIM a lot more.~ *Cloud 10* ;)

2010-10-27T07:02:00.000-07:00

There is this parent that I really can't stand throughout this one whole year.

She has been complaining over minor things and frankly speaking, it makes her look very silly. And today she made a racist remark.

I wish I could put my professionalism aside and start a cat fight with her. Because you know what, I am a teacher, not your maid taking care of your only princess. I am here to teach not to wipe her ass off.

If this is how you mold your child, by being overly protective, shouting at others for your daughter's right over small issues which is not even an issue to begin with.. You are only going to mold a spoil brat.

Mark my words, your daughter will grow up to be a sissy. And trust me, if you think this is the best for her.. She will be a loner and psychotic like you. PERIOD.

PFFFT!!

2010-10-23T07:08:00.000-07:00

I guess apart of me is afraid to give my all because I'm fear of getting hurt.

But today I can't deny my feelings of how much I love you so.

"You 'kan kepak kiri I Bi.. I tak boleh terbang kalau u takde disisi.."

;)

2010-10-21T08:08:00.000-07:00

I came across a very old email. An email that I should have deleted. An email that made me think of the past which could never ever comes back again. Surprisingly, it still brought tears to my eyes.

That's why I am telling myself again and again.. Not to take Razlie for granted.

Once is enough of losing someone that I loved so much because of my own foolishness. I don't want to go through that road again.

Regret is a feeling that you can't take away no matter how much you cry over it.

And I want to love him differently. ;)

Oh, on the side note.. Everything went well today. The visitors were cool and proud of myself and the whole centre as well. Everybody seems to be in a good mood after they left. Hee..

"Lately, I have been telling myself.. To get up there means that you have to bear more responsibilities. HEH. Funny."

2010-10-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

I can't wait for tomorrow to be over. Head shots will be coming down to the centre and I will have to work from 7.30 to 6.30... OT for 2 hours..

PFFT!!

And then on Friday, I will be on leave! *uber excited*

Oh, one of my parents shouted at me the other day.. The same parent that has been complaining about me.. She finally blew off and I couldn't stand her either. Typical chinese auntie.. I almost at the verge of shouting back at her. Luckily two teachers interfered. Seriously.. And she still has the cheek to say, "teacher imah is here.. why are you crying.." When you just scolded me in front of her? Like WTH.

You see... I have a life going on here. We are not school girls anymore.. I have a working life, I have a family and I have my own life to run.. I guess only people who don't have much things on their hand will go around and spot people's mistake..

2010-10-17T07:13:00.000-07:00

"It is these small little things that makes me love you even more...~

Today, Razlie went down and helped me in the centre.. Can you imagine, on Sunday, it is you off day and you need to come down to work... Huhu.. But certainly, he made it livelier.. To see him mopping, sweeping, took out children's work and pasted it on the wall, he did all that just for me...

I was really touched.. *smiles*

A man can't look more charming when he is helping a girl he loves...

Thank you Bi... ;)

"I like it when I talked to you about my problems or issues.. You didn't choose to side with me but gave your opinions on both parties.."

Ya Allah... Semoga Razlie menjadi suamiku yang sah, yang soleh, yang bertanggung jawab, yang penyayang.. Amin!! ;)

"Friendship or Relationships is not just about having fun quality times together, but through good times and hard times.. That's what make it worth." - Emma

Pai is getting married. She is going to be sooo pretty. I am happy for her, so happy. But apart of me feels like I am losing her... She is migrating... :(

2010-10-15T08:29:00.000-07:00

I guess insurance agent are all the same. They appeared to care about your life, but all they care about are just your money.

Bah!

Luckily Bi was there with me and finished it quite short and straight to the point. I guess it made Zul quite speechless for awhile.

I didn't mean to be rude but he left me with no choice but to be harsh.. I have made myself clear that I would want to terminate my line, clearly because I have no money.. More input to my savings.. But he didn't seems to register that in his head.

He brought his colleague with him and gave an excuse that his colleague has appointment afterward. But ironically his colleague kept asking me about my plan and tried to coax me about lowering the price of my plan, yadda yadda yadda... I was very frustrated...

So dissappointed in him.. I signed up with him because I thought he was different from any other insurance agent.. Especially after he told me how his father passed away and how hard his mother supported the whole family..

And now.. What I can feel is fake.

Well you know what, try harder the next time.

Wait! There won't be the next time. *smirks*

~Bi was sick. He was restless. Kesian sangat. And despite that, he fetched me from work and accompanied me. Thanks many many dear..~ ;)

2010-10-14T05:06:00.000-07:00

When I called him, he picked up and played this song,

"When I see your face.. There's not a thing that I would change.. 'Coz you are amazing, just the way you are.."
- Bruno Mars

Awwww... That's so sweeeet of him.

2010-10-13T05:29:00.000-07:00

I love you more.

When I was down over issues between my friends and I, you were there listening.

Countless times, reassuring.

And after what happened yesterday, I told myself, I will never ever want to take you for granted.

For you are almost too perfect.

I still feel a bit distance between them. I tried, but I can't help feeling that way.

2010-10-12T08:45:00.000-07:00

Don't look at me like I am some kind of perfect, because I am not.

And I don't want to hear that one day, you are telling me that I have changed..

Just because you have seen the flaws that you used to not.

- Emma Aziz

2010-10-11T04:50:00.000-07:00

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

Indeed.

Bleah..

I am stress. I know I am stress. I keep on eating chocolate.

But I am not sure what is stressing me. HEH.

Though probably my emotions have been going super UP and DOWN lately.

*urgh*

Work sucks. This year too demoralizing.

Degree starting.

Driving license is whatever.

Slimming down is a chore!!

Best friend is getting married... :( (She will be migrating.. So saaaad)

I don't know la..... -_-"

Wonder what makes me uber happy right now.

Excuse me. It is one of those moments.

2010-09-24T12:36:00.001-07:00

Mak, "Kenapa Imah nak kurus? Imah bukan gemuk sangat."

And I said, "Imah taknak jadi bukan gemuk sangat. Imah nak jadi kurus."

Kak Siti, "I cannot imagine you being slim."

Kak Su, "Imah dah okay apa. Kak Su suka badan Imah macam gini."

Me, "Cannot imagine? I imagine it every day!"

It is MISERABLE to be fat. You have to watch your diet and you need to jog.. On top of that, it's not that easy to lose weight....

I feel that look and size does matter because appearance is all you got to show it to strangers.

I wanna be slim... :(

2010-09-11T14:26:00.000-07:00

Having someone means.. You can talk nonsense or just about anything with him.

Love him a lot.

PERIOD.

2010-09-05T02:33:00.000-07:00

Apa nak jadi dengan aku.

Apa nak jadi dengan aku.

Apa nak jadi dengan aku.

HAIZ.

2010-09-02T23:37:00.000-07:00

Mr. Hot Stuff.

mine! mine! mine!! ;P

Loving you makes me feel like a teenage girl again.

And I like it.

*winks*

2010-08-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

I have a high ego.

But I always lowered down my ego because of my guilty conscious.

I don't like the feeling of looking back at the past and felt that I shouldn't have done that.

Seriously by right, most of the times I wouldn't care.

2010-08-25T10:33:00.000-07:00

I didn't expect that I could fall in love like this again.

I love him. LOTS. And I am VERY happy with him indeed.

Ya Allah, let him be the one. May he be a good husband to me and I shall be a good wife to him. Amin...

~Thank you for coming into my life. For you are the happiest thing that ever happened to me.~

*big smiles*

2010-08-22T06:13:00.000-07:00

At this moment, I feel fortunate.

I have good family, crazy friends, a nice best friend, well workplace and of course someone dear next to me. Alhamdulillah..

I know that good things will not last forever. Sounds pessimistic but life has its own ups and downs for sure.

But currently, I am happy to be where I am right now. =) And thank you Allah..

I am going to get busy few more months down the road.. Degree, driving license and English test... HEH! I can do it.. ;)

~Don't remember the past Imah.. Because you have a brighter future awaits you. If you don't trust yourself.. At least, trust HIM.~

2010-08-17T09:11:00.000-07:00

Hmm... At this moment, this is how I really feel..

"No love last forever except Allah's love. And His love is the greatest."

And I should thank orang lama for making me feels this way. He left and taught me that no matter how sweet and promising one sound, people can always change...

Nothing is predictable.

I guess berserah is the keyword. It makes me feels weak. It makes me feels dependent.

I'm merely a mortal at the beginning of my life.. I'm still a mortal at the end of the journey.

"Baru-baru nih.. Aku banyak sangat ikutkan perasaan. Perasaan marah, perasaan sayang.. Dan pelbagai perasaan lagi yang aku sendiri tak pandai atasinya. Aku tak tahulah Tuhan.. Apa nak jadi dengan aku... And above all that, He chose me because of my agama. Agama aku Tuhan..?"

2010-08-16T05:59:00.000-07:00

Masih terngiang-terngiang....

I didn't expect that coming from you...

Not meant to be.

On the other hand, He knows better.

Segala yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya... ;)

During lunch time, one of my students, Tenessa said, "I love you, teacher Imah."
Trust me, I will never get sick hearing it. *winks*

Cute or What?! Pink RULES! ;)

2010-08-14T23:25:00.000-07:00

"Why should we look on someone's past when we know we can build a brighter future ahead.."

It was a pleasant meeting.

REALLY.

They are warm people indeed.

~And quietly I looked at your face and smiled.. Boy, you make me happy.~ =)

2010-08-10T06:00:00.000-07:00

"Nice to meet you, Ramadhan!"

Seems like I lost myself back then...

I think I lost myself since last year. Lost and found.. Lost again.

I need to get back. I'm way far behind now....

~Aku tak alim... Aku jauh sey dari alim. Tapi aku suka tengok orang alim. Dan dalam diam, aku mengharapkan suatu hari, aku akan berada dikalangan mereka..~ Amin.

2010-08-05T08:02:00.000-07:00

I guess... Im still not used to goodbyes.

No more Smiley name on my blog.

"Halau".

That's a harsh word.

I wouldn't "halau" a friend... I just don't like having misunderstandings with him over "you" again and again...

He was furious... And almost wanted to pick up your call. And me.. I just don't want to make things ugly.

Urgh. DRAMA.

2010-08-03T17:59:00.000-07:00

I am HAPPY today. =)

On the other hand, I browsed my blog and feel like I've changed..

I don't want to be that kind of girl....

*sigh*

Aaahhh.... Okay, forget about that. I should be happy!

Today is His birthday. ;)

2010-07-27T04:49:00.000-07:00

I think.. The game of love is all the same. Just different people and how you play it.

Take things slowly.

Don't rush.

If you are meant to be together, you will have the whole lifetime to spend with.

NOTED.

P/S: Work taste like shit. Okay, that harsh. Work sucks. Any better? HEH.

2010-07-13T07:57:00.000-07:00

~Usahlah Engkau Persalahkan Kakimu... Andainya Rebah Di Bumi Mu Sendiri..
Mungkinkah Ada Kesilapan Semalam.. Lafazkanlah Sejujur Hati...~

How to tell the difference between the truth and the lies..?

How to judge a person's sincerity..?

They said, time will tell.

But honey, I don't have all the time in the world.

Pray.

Pray that tomorrow shall bring some signs..

And though I heard this phrase a hundred times before but today, it hits me quite hard that, "Kita merancang tetapi Tuhan yang menentukan."

Promises are best not to be remembered.. It's like clinging onto words that can break you anytime.

Rabbi... I'm all yours.

2010-07-08T12:13:00.000-07:00

After 3 years..

Yes Rabbi, I am thankful.

=D

And I hope it will be lasted until halal, spending the old age and go to Mecca together and to Heaven... Amin.

Not what I wanted, but it is perfectly mine.

~It is funny.. How love can make one accept differences.~

2010-07-04T08:45:00.001-07:00

It just happened.

4-July-2010

2010-06-27T08:22:00.000-07:00

Have more reasons to smile... =)

2010-06-24T09:08:00.000-07:00

~Insya Allah, you find your way.~

*sigh* stress with work is no joke.

Driving License, English course and probably Degree soon. And Diploma Pengajian Islam..?

Can I handle it, Imah..?

On top of that, the workload is not decreasing. -_-

I miss them. I am crazy with them but I can go crazy without them. Somehow they make me more sane.

2010-06-21T07:01:00.000-07:00

~Alhamdulillah.. Haza min fadhli Rabbi...~

I passed my BTT today and I should be happy. Well, indeed I am. Hamdan lillah.. Thanks for all your prayers.. And thank you Allah. It was so last minute that I passed my evaluation that enable me to take my BTT. Everything was cramped on my head and I was still recovering from flu, cyness, cough and ashtma..

*sigh*

I am highly stress right now.

MI BUZZ, performance, documentations, PTC, observations, photos, English class, exams...

And on top of all that, I lost my IC. Thanks eh!

Mangkuk BIG TIME!

Say "NO!" to procastination.

"Rabbi.. Help me to pull this through.... I want to cry already. =( "

2010-06-13T07:02:00.000-07:00

Bye Sunway... *sobs*

"Nak naik gaji lagi? Pening-pening.." LOL.

@ Sunway. Kanak-Kanak Riang Ria.

Ya Allah.. I would sincerely want to have a husband that pray jemaah together with the children. Amin..

In the Bus. Me, my mom and my sis. =)

And I soooooo... Miss this bed!!

~Saya memang tidak layak untuk meminta apa-apa dariMu.. Tetapi dengan siapa lagi yang saya hendak meminta, kalau bukan dariMu... Rabbi....~

2010-06-05T09:32:00.000-07:00

~When you have a sickness, it feels like looking only a glimpse of your dreams..~

Anal cancer doesn't sounds good to me.

Well, I hope I don't ever have that or any anal and rectal diseases, Crohn's disease or Gastrointestinal Bleeding, whatever you name it. Amin.

If you know, you are going to have that kind of illness, would you go to a doctor or probably let it be worst and leave it to fate...?

Leaving it to fate sounds easy right. Well, giving up is easy.

Maybe it was just a normal internal bleeding.. Or so I hope. Amin.

6 June 2010.

2010-06-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

"As much as I hate this feeling, I do love it."

And suddenly I have this thought..

I want to make you happy.

2010-06-02T08:41:00.000-07:00

"PBB mengutuk serangan Israel."

Mengutuk is not enough.

2010-05-20T08:26:00.000-07:00

"Rely only on Allah.."

I love this guy! He is doing dakwah, he is doing it very well. Straight to the point and I can relate it to myself...

I am not pious though I aim to be.. I just like spritual stuffs. It is amazing how one can communicate, to believe and have faith on something they couldn't see with their bear eyes and yet able to feel it in their heart.... Subhanallah.. It is superb. =)

"because that is the unseen, the workings of Allah, the plan of Allah.. that we feel like Allah has abandoned us.. That's what a feeling that one gets when they are in distresssed.. But it is at that very moment when we are in distress that Allah really test, who are the people who believes.. And who are the people who only believes when times are good.."

2010-05-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

The Irony of Life

This picture was taken 10 years ago. How young were we.. I was 14 years old. =)

"our arrival ticket is confirmed. but our departure only He knows. It's more than living life to the fullest.. or in fact there's so many things to accomplished be it in this world or hereafter. then.. we can name live life to the fullest. :)" - A'eisha

2010-05-16T07:43:00.000-07:00

Bacalah do'a ketika Anda bersedih ...

اَللَّهُمَّ إِنِّيْ عَبْدُكَ، ابْنُ عَبْدِكَ، ابْنُ أَمَتِكَ، نَاصِيَتِيْ

بِيَدِكَ، مَاضٍ فِيَّ حُكْمُكَ، عَدْلٌ فِيَّ قَضَاؤُكَ

أَسْأَلُكَ بِكُلِّ اسْمٍ هُوَ لَكَ، سَمَّيْتَ بِهِ نَفْسَكَ، أَوْ أَنْزَلْتَهُ فِيْ كِتَابِكَ،

أَوْ عَلَّمْتَهُ أَحَدًا مِنْ خَلْقِكَ أَوِ اسْتَأْثَرْتَ بِهِ فِيْ عِلْمِ الْغَيْبِ عِنْدَكَ،

أَنْ تَجْعَلَ الْقُرْآنَ رَبِيْعَ قَلْبِيْ، وَنُوْرَ صَدْرِيْ وَجَلاَءَ حُزْنِيْ وَذَهَابَ هَمِّيْ

“Ya Allah! Sesungguhnya aku adalah hambaMu, anak hambaMu (Adam) dan anak hamba perempuanMu (Hawa). Ubun-ubunku di tanganMu, keputusan-Mu berlaku padaku, qadhaMu kepadaku adalah adil. Aku mohon kepadaMu dengan setiap nama (baik) yang telah Engkau gunakan untuk diriMu, yang Engkau turunkan dalam kitabMu, Engkau ajarkan kepada seseorang dari makhlukMu atau yang Engkau khususkan untuk diriMu dalam ilmu ghaib di sisiMu, hendaknya Engkau jadikan Al-Qur’an sebagai penenteram hatiku, cahaya di dadaku, pelenyap duka dan kesedihanku.”
(HR. Ahmad 1/391. Menurut pendapat Al-Albani, hadits tersebut adalah sahih)

اَللَّهُمَّ إِنِّيْ أَعُوْذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْهَمِّ وَالْحُزْنِ، وَالْعَجْزِ وَالْكَسَلِ
وَالْبُخْلِ وَالْجُبْنِ، وَضَلَعِ الدَّيْنِ وَغَلَبَةِ الرِّجَالِ

“Ya Allah! Sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepadaMu dari (hal yang) menyedihkan dan menyusahkan, lemah dan malas, bakhil dan penakut, lilitan hutang dan penindasan orang.”
(HR. Al-Bukhari 7/158. Rasulullah shallallaahu 'alaihi wasallam senantiasa membaca doa ini, lihat kitab Fathul Baari 11/173)

DOA UNTUK KESEDIHAN YANG MENDALAM

لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ اللهُ الْعَظِيْمُ الْحَلِيْمُ، لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ اللهُ رَبُّ الْعَرْشِ الْعَظِيْمُ

لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ اللهُ رَبُّ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَرَبُّ اْلأَرْضِ وَرَبُّ الْعَرْشِ الْكَرِيْمُ

“Tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Allah Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Pengampun. Tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Allah, Tuhan yang menguasai arasy, yang Maha Agung. Tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Allah, Tuhan yang menguasai langit dan bumi. Tuhan Yang menguasai arasy, lagi Maha Mulia.” (HR. Al-Bukhari 7/154, Muslim 4/2092)

اَللَّهُمَّ رَحْمَتَكَ أَرْجُو فَلاَ تَكِلْنِيْ إِلَى نَفْسِيْ طَرْفَةَ عَيْنٍ،

وَأَصْلِحْ لِيْ شَأْنِيْ كُلَّهُ، لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ أَنْتَ

“Ya Allah! Aku mengharapkan (mendapat) rahmatMu, oleh karena itu, jangan Engkau biarkan diriku sekejap mata (tanpa pertolongan atau rahmat dariMu). Perbaikilah seluruh urusanku, tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Engkau.”
(HR. Abu Dawud 4/324, Ahmad 5/42. Menurut pendapat Al-Albani, hadits di atas adalah hasan dalam Shahih Abu Dawud 3/959)

لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ أَنْتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّيْ كُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِيْنَ

“Tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Engkau. Maha Suci Engkau.
Sesungguhnya aku tergolong orang-orang yang zhalim.”
(HR. At-Tirmidzi 5/529 dan Al-Hakim. Menurut pendapatnya yang disetujui oleh Adz-Dzahabi: Hadits ini shahih 1/505, lihat Shahih At-Tirmidzi 3/168)

اللهُ اللهُ رَبِّي لاَ أُشْرِكُ بِهِ شَيْئًا

“Allah-Allah adalah Tuhanku. Aku tidak menyekutukanNya dengan sesuatu.”
(HR. Abu Dawud 2/87 dan lihat Shahih Ibnu Majah 2/335)

2010-05-13T09:09:00.000-07:00

Priceless.

;)

2010-05-12T09:37:00.000-07:00

Someone told me this today:

Don't forgive too easily.

Don't trust too much.

Be strong. Don't be too sensitive.

Don't be too vulnerable and too gullible.

Always put your guard up.

Emma Aziz - How can you forget someone who gave you so much to remember..? says:
in a good way, i thanked god that i met u la..

2010-05-11T10:19:00.000-07:00

Do you know how pathetic this song can make you feel?

Seakan merayu dan mengharap.

Can't you just stand on your own two feet?

Kesepian itu memakan jiwa.

Dear Rabbi, please take it away, for what has left is meant to be forgotten.

Amin.

2010-05-09T08:51:00.000-07:00

"Mak taknak rasa coklat ima kat dalam aisbok..?"

The chocolate was damn hard. We both laughed for awhile because mak couldn't seem to bite the chocolate. Which she did in the end, I guess just to makes me feel better. Hahaha...

Honestly, I don't find the issue of celebrating Mother's day. It is not like we are making a sin or forsaken Allah. So make me understand, what is sooo wrong of making a day to acknowledge her sacrfices? It is not like we don't respect, being rude or mistreating her any other day...
I am a muslim but I celebrated mother's day. ;)

I can't wait to go holiday with my whole family this coming June! ;D Yeay!

The KL trip was... Okay. I guess. Nothing much to say. I came at the wrong timing. Well, thanks for the effort though. HEH. I should have go with my instinct instead. 4 days of leave. *sigh* =)

OH-OH.. I had a weird dream last night. It was snowing in Singapore. I woke my brother up, "Abang.. Abang, tengok snow kat luar!" And I knew the end was nearing because the climate has changed. Scary. And the other funny part was, my brother is married and not living with me anymore. Hee...

~It is funny how little small things could trigger you back to the past. And some of the days, you can just cry thinking about it. Yakinkan aku Tuhan, dia bukan milikku... Just be happy for him. That's the least you can do.~

2010-05-03T23:46:00.000-07:00

I will be going to KL in few hours time.

Don't really feel excited about this trip. Probably because I am the only one whose on holiday. Wish kiah and wani could go with me.. *sobs*

And don't think I am going to Genting... Boohoo. =(

I don't feel like shopping either. Changed $250 only.

Bleah.

2010-05-02T14:27:00.000-07:00

~Yes, with iphone..~

Polaroid. 1st May 2010

Dash Colour. Pai... Gonna miss you, gurl.

Puri! I thanked Allah for letting me meet such a wonderful friend like you.

Installed those applications on my iphone. Finally bought it after much contemplating. Hee.. It was worth it. =)

And thank you people for helping me during my selenge time on exploring the iphone.

"u r a very very sweet nice beautiful gurl
nt sweet talkin here
but honestly u r
wat u did for me last time...no other gurls did
u know wat u want in life...u hv plans...u want this n tat....gd for u gurl"
Sometimes it is better to remember all the nice things.

2010-04-29T09:51:00.000-07:00

~Of simple things in life...~

Uber-Kawaiiii.... I love toddlers.. They are cute. But taking care 8 of them at one go is totally a different thing.. Heheeh! =)

She gave me this flower today! Seriously, it was the sweetest!!! *terharu*

I have been drinking Ice coffee everyday.. Big addiction...

Seems like a glimpse of hope.. Hoping... Yearning..
And yet.. Everything seems so far away.

2010-04-26T07:11:00.000-07:00

If there comes a day where I go first before my mother..

I would like to say it here that I love her a lot. =)

Thank you mak for bringing me up. And have enough patience with me..

I know, I am not that easy to handle.

You deserved the best. And I pray to Allah to reserve a Jannah for you. Amin.

~Flip flops..~ The most expensive shoes I ever had. And she bought for me as a b'day gift! Wonder why is it so expensive? Because it is able to tone your legs! Click here to know more.. ;)

And she made for me bekal the other day when I went for my basics theory lesson. Huhu.. How cute is that? =)

The other day, she told me how proud she is of me... But it is just her nature not to say these kind of things out loud... =) Thanks mak, I appreciate that.

~Sometimes you just can't tell whats real and whats not...~

2010-04-24T22:07:00.000-07:00

~Ungu @ Indoor Stadium~

Taken with my pathetic Nokia phone. =) Last night was awesome, though I almost fell asleep half way.. Don't ask me why. Weird. Probably because I don't listen to their latest song.. Ehekz!

But Hady Mirza appearance brightened up the concert and everything fell back into its place. =) However I do love love the ending.. And was touched that Ungu sang another song before saying goodbye... Much much better than the previous concert @ Esplanade. *had fun*

Have you ever felt pasrah... Half giving up, half surrender everything to Allah... And bits of yours feelings all jumbled up into one..? Yeah.. Probably I'm feeling that way now... Rabbi... I feel like laughing through it all...

Goodbye you.

P/s: It didn't happened... I guess it was expected. =)

2010-04-23T22:00:00.000-07:00

~People are just as happy as their minds make up to be.~

I shall give myself two years, to have...

Degree
Driving License
Losing 10 Kg

Beb, you can do it! =)

2 years down the road.. I shall be 26 years old.

And I am uber-excited. Hehehe!

"Ungu concert is tonight but I am really looking forward for tomorrow. Ya Allah... Make it happen please.... Amin...."

2010-04-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

~Dimana dia.. Anak kambing saya?~

This feeling is so familiar.

And when was the last time I felt this way..?

Probably about five years back.

Somehow, I hate this feeling.

It makes me feel so dependable, vulnerable and weak.

Though.. At the corner of my heart.. Im praying to Allah.. Please, make it happen. Amin.

2010-04-21T07:24:00.001-07:00

Nak ambil degree.

Nak ambil degree.

Nak ambil degree..

Tetapi tak ada duit.

=(

2010-04-20T10:19:00.001-07:00

I am sooo looking forward to Sunday! =D

Please Rabbi.. Ya Allah.. Pleaseee...

Make it happen! Amin....

*jumps around*

2010-04-15T07:18:00.000-07:00

"Tuhan nak kau jumpa orang ah. Tengok-tengok orang. Masa kau belum datang lagi." -Patrick

~The "jambu" Gardens~ Haha..

Celebrated Wani's birthday @ Suntec City/Pastamania.. =)

~Marhaba. Biasa jugak.~

2010-04-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

Saya budak baru nak belajar.
Kalau salah, tolong tunjukkan.

=)

2010-04-10T19:51:00.000-07:00

I guess that's life...

If you make a mistake, feels shitty or you feel there is no turning back..

Well, the good news is, you can always start again.

Believe in Allah and believe in yourself Imah, anything can happen! ;)

_____________________________________

2010-04-10T02:23:00.000-07:00

Unreasonable parents can make a teacher lose the passion in teaching.

If Islam does not forbid of killing a person, I would have kill her probably.

Thanks for the knife at the back. Sharp indeed. You will be remembered in my curse, from the bottom of my heart.

Honestly, she has been testing my patience from the beginning of the year. I really feel like confronting her directly.

Take it in my stride and putting my widest smile for her. Total facade.
Yes, I need this. Thank you.

2010-04-08T06:22:00.000-07:00

Honestly Rabbi, at the rate I am going.. I don't know how much more I can handle.

Feeling horrible.

Work is emotionally breaking me down. Not the colleague, but some of my parents.

*sigh*

7 more months to go.

Though I do love my class, my partner and my children.

2010-04-07T05:45:00.000-07:00

"Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."

Sometimes Imah, it is good if you keep your thoughts to yourself.

Sometimes Imah, it is better for you to act dumb rather than standing up for the notion.

Sometimes Imah, it is best if you just go with the flow.

Sometimes Imah, that's just how the way it is. =)

If you are human enough Imah, then stop whining. You can't be happy and please everyone.

2010-04-06T08:39:00.000-07:00

If Allah helps you, none can overcome you, and if He forsakes you, who is there after Him who can help you? And in Allah alone let the believers put their trust.” (Al-Imran: 160)

“Only those who are patient shall receive their reward in full, without reckoning.” (Verse 10) surat Az-Zumar.

Hm....

Remember that Imah.

There was one time, I got to know this sister. She is very nice indeed.

She told me that she been solat hajat since she was 19 to get a good partner.

And now she is... 28? And still searching.

But she told me that she does not what to think about it that much. As she does not wants her ibadah solely to be because of wanting a partner instead of gaining His barakah.

This is what I called, genuine.

2010-04-05T06:19:00.000-07:00

I always find it funny, how one person can come into your life and destroy the pride that you have built over the times.

The long, hard, stiff and iron wall can easily be broken by just one person.

And then it takes years for you to build it up again.

It's the same like creating memories and ends up forcing yourself to forget it.

The whole process is tiring and draining. Ironically, we always getting trapped to this kind of cycle.

Well, at least for me.

And I am trying myself to be stronger. Yet, as I aged, I realized that I am more vulnerable than before. And smallest thing would leave an emotional disturbance and the past would come through my mind like a storm.

Yes, the storm is only for awhile, or so I hope. Not healthy, Imah, not healthy.

So I am building the wall again, thicker, stronger and made of steel. Oh, with bismillah stamped on it. ;)

And I prayed that my emotional side don't break the wall that I, myself have created.

2010-03-31T07:28:00.000-07:00

People lie all the times.

I should have gotten used to it.

Not feeling good at the moment.

2010-03-30T10:32:00.001-07:00

I was talking to Mr. Smiley on the phone.. And I farted, it was loud. *proott* *prooot* *proooot*

Then I asked him, "Dengar tak?"

He said in a selamba tone, "Dengar. Bunyi kentot".

I was laughing like mad. I am still laughing now. OMG.. This is the first time someone heard me farted three times in a row... -_- *paisey*

2010-03-28T00:10:00.000-07:00

My sis and Me.

And I just realized how different we look.. Huhu!!~

Watched "How to train your dragon" and it was awesome! 3.5 stars!

"I opened my scrap book and it holds so many kental memories. Hehe.. How life changed." =)

2010-03-26T19:28:00.000-07:00

"Teacher Imah, when my father dropped the medicine, he said "Damn it".

Hehe.. I love my job. Thanks mum. =)

Oh, I got my bonus. And indeed, alhamdulillah. I am contented with the numbers I am seeing.

Though there are lots of other things to pay.

And yes, driving license coming up! =D

Yesterday, went lepak-ing with Wanie and Kiah @ IMM. We were crazy. It was loads of fun.

CUTE! Self-admiration is okay! =P

Heheh... What a nice way to end the week. =)

"People change Imah, they do. You been there. You done that. Never put expectations on something you are not even sure about. Imaaah, you are stronger than this!! Come on la... You are made of steel. There are so much things you can do.. The world is so wide. Go KL. Go and do something crazy. Just go on, LIVE."

2010-03-25T06:13:00.000-07:00

~Just so you know.~

It feels so wrong when it is the right thing to do.

You wouldn't want to hear this and I wouldn't want to say this also..

But.. I am..
Missing you.

2010-03-24T07:34:00.000-07:00

"When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close. I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me, That they may walk in the right way." [2:186]

*sigh*

Here I am Rabbi.. I am at lost.

I am back to square one again.

Thank you for the short show.

=)

"Kita selalu nak yang terbaik untuk kita. Kita selalu kejarkan yang terbaik.
Tapi kalau kita dah tau benda itu buruk untuk kita dan
suatu hari benda buruk itu terjadi.. Nak salahkan siapa?"

I swear it feels terrible, letting you go....
Hee.. Takpelah, kawan lebih baik dari musuh.

2010-03-20T04:34:00.000-07:00

"Imah, tell me.. Your life is sooo much bigger than this.
Come on.. Tell me, you are made so much stronger than this."

Have you ever been in a situation where you regret things soooo much..
That you wish you could turn back the times and make things right again?
You had what you always wanted for, but you blew it away..
And nothing you can do about it but to live with it?

I guess Allah wanted me to learn, to change and to become a better person.
He has better plans for me in which I may not know.
And I am sure Allah will help those who turned to Him.

It is just a matter of time, persevere and patience.

But dear Rabbi, sometimes... It gets really tough.

And dear me, redha.. Please redha. And don't stop the Do'a.

2010-03-16T06:45:00.000-07:00

~So tell me how long before the right one?~

Dear Rabbi,

This is all that I have.

Please make me strong enough to redha for what is going to happen.

=)

This too shall pass.

No hope. No harm. Just another false alarm...

"I am falling for real. And it's freaking me out."

2010-03-15T09:30:00.000-07:00

"To Him, I surrender."

"Banyak berdoa dan bersabar. Manusia selalu nak cepat tetapi Allah sudah tetapkan masa yang terbaik untuk hamba yang tidak berputus asa."